Sleepless Nights [#5][Rated... Something hard - Private - Rekkan / Riko]
Mar 17, 2011 14:32:00 GMT -5
Post by Akume no Rekkan on Mar 17, 2011 14:32:00 GMT -5
His knees pressed against the expanding chest. Breathing was never so easy when memories of a past life came rushing back.
The need of another shot of heroine or a blow of snow white powder drove Rekkan mad. He had just reached rock bottom again, banging his head against the bed and trying to muffle the sound of his screams. The shinigami's resolve was eclipsed by that rush, by such an addiction that could turn into a fatality one day or the other. His form was corrupted, but not more defiled than the very essence of his heart. It was if a hollow carved its nails in his soul and squeezed it tight, to forever force him to feel pain. That was his punishment, the just consequence for destroying his life and that of those who were somehow connected with him. Not even remembering the Bushido could save Rekkan as he drowned in a sea of nightmares and despise.
But in every dark intent lies an outrageous roar that deafens even the strongest of giants. The snapping jaws of a lion was an image Rekkan was more than acquainted with, and having Ryoku care so much about the shinigami's well being was decisive on the path each harsh night took. Memories toyed with him, sometimes giving Rekkan a glimpse of his happy years alongside his mother, most times pursuing and haunting the being with visualizations of sadistic drug consumption. His mind withered, almost like if vanished, and let a beast take over. A chain of actions was set in action and Rekkan was once again standing on his feet, Zanpakuto held tight by his right hand as the blade was swung from one side to the other. Its edge raged against the solid form of the room's walls, skewering energy and shredding matter. It was a lunatic's way of surpassing the pain of the Past, even if it was momentarily. A fit of rage was capable of overwhelming the most recurrent of thoughts. Instincts could ravage the land of imagination. With knowledge of this, the shinigami would act at a subconscious level to drive the pain away.
After the countless hours of scratching and tearing the walls of his room, he fell on his bed, sweat dripping from his now pale skin. The flesh was craving for a more extensive beat up, but nothing could be done. His body was at its limit and his resolve was gone. There was surely no more but to give up to the temptation. His Zanpakuto tingled, yet there was no response from the lieutenant. It roared, but there was nothing but more silence.
"Drop dead, will you...?"
The edge of the cliff. Rekkan was just dying to jump from it. Eyes bleeding red from desire... It was if two centuries of pain weren't enough punishment. Curse the fucking spirits that meddled with Rosuto Rekkan. Why couldn't they leave him alone? Better yet, have him smash his skull in an accidental drop or just have him lose the fragments of memories he held inside his head.
But it was futile to look up at the ceiling and think about "what ifs". That's how one loses himself in the first place. Even though Rekkan was away from minding that possibility at all, something in him prevented him from doing so. His dark brown eyes choked and carved their aim in the darkness above. The white was shrouded long ago as the Sun crashed down on the horizon and the Moon rose ever so gracefully. And Rekkan remained in a stand still.
The need of another shot of heroine or a blow of snow white powder drove Rekkan mad. He had just reached rock bottom again, banging his head against the bed and trying to muffle the sound of his screams. The shinigami's resolve was eclipsed by that rush, by such an addiction that could turn into a fatality one day or the other. His form was corrupted, but not more defiled than the very essence of his heart. It was if a hollow carved its nails in his soul and squeezed it tight, to forever force him to feel pain. That was his punishment, the just consequence for destroying his life and that of those who were somehow connected with him. Not even remembering the Bushido could save Rekkan as he drowned in a sea of nightmares and despise.
But in every dark intent lies an outrageous roar that deafens even the strongest of giants. The snapping jaws of a lion was an image Rekkan was more than acquainted with, and having Ryoku care so much about the shinigami's well being was decisive on the path each harsh night took. Memories toyed with him, sometimes giving Rekkan a glimpse of his happy years alongside his mother, most times pursuing and haunting the being with visualizations of sadistic drug consumption. His mind withered, almost like if vanished, and let a beast take over. A chain of actions was set in action and Rekkan was once again standing on his feet, Zanpakuto held tight by his right hand as the blade was swung from one side to the other. Its edge raged against the solid form of the room's walls, skewering energy and shredding matter. It was a lunatic's way of surpassing the pain of the Past, even if it was momentarily. A fit of rage was capable of overwhelming the most recurrent of thoughts. Instincts could ravage the land of imagination. With knowledge of this, the shinigami would act at a subconscious level to drive the pain away.
After the countless hours of scratching and tearing the walls of his room, he fell on his bed, sweat dripping from his now pale skin. The flesh was craving for a more extensive beat up, but nothing could be done. His body was at its limit and his resolve was gone. There was surely no more but to give up to the temptation. His Zanpakuto tingled, yet there was no response from the lieutenant. It roared, but there was nothing but more silence.
"Drop dead, will you...?"
The edge of the cliff. Rekkan was just dying to jump from it. Eyes bleeding red from desire... It was if two centuries of pain weren't enough punishment. Curse the fucking spirits that meddled with Rosuto Rekkan. Why couldn't they leave him alone? Better yet, have him smash his skull in an accidental drop or just have him lose the fragments of memories he held inside his head.
But it was futile to look up at the ceiling and think about "what ifs". That's how one loses himself in the first place. Even though Rekkan was away from minding that possibility at all, something in him prevented him from doing so. His dark brown eyes choked and carved their aim in the darkness above. The white was shrouded long ago as the Sun crashed down on the horizon and the Moon rose ever so gracefully. And Rekkan remained in a stand still.