Post by Kenshou Ine on Mar 25, 2014 22:20:26 GMT -5
We all experience and end of an era at some point or another at BG, this is one of those times. While his service to the site is ranked among the highest in times where we needed it most, he has decided to take a step back and let others run things.
I'll try to keep this brief. Try to read it all so you don't overlook the important details.
In Bleach Gotei's history I've helped depose former leaders who made one of two mistakes.
1. Attempting to be in a leadership position while not passionate about the community, ultimately resulting in performance that was only a shell of what they had already demonstrated.
2. Trying to make massive judgement calls while not involved with the community at all.
The former was once made by Artix many years back, a man I barely recognize. Riko fell into the same trap later on. I blame neither of them. That latter mistake was committed by Twinkie and we see the warzone it made Bleach Gotei when he couldn't count on our website being there the next day.
I loved it and I loved fighting tooth and nail to make Bleach Gotei safe--it was, after all, one of the few places I had found that lasted. I enjoyed working furiously for the game and being at 110%. Those of you around at the time remember the scope, if not the average quality, of the things I managed to accomplish. All of it to find a sense of security for the community through excellence.
We achieved that in September 2012.
At that point I lost my passion for this place. All things considered I could have done a worse job in the past year and a half but it would have been a challenge. My place since then has never been working on the front lines like it was once, but just helping to keep things together and maybe offering a fun idea or two. That's what I should have done, paid the bills and made sure no one brought hay into the house and set it on fire.
It's hard to do less than that after so long. Some of you might understand, might not. But none of you need more of a history lesson. Either way, I didn't do what I should have and instead clung on like an overprotective parent. I began to make the same mistake as circa 2010 Artix and Riko after him. I hate you all so very much at times and yet I over correct, rarely hitting on the perfect decision to make in a given situation--something that used to be natural for me.
I am supposed to have been the one who was better than that. So I need to be better than that.
So some things are changing and I hope you can all bear with me.
I hereby resign as Head Mechanics Liaison. Colin Arascain is the obvious choice to succeed my position.
I hereby resign as Storytelling Administrator. Erasmus was always the next choice and while I think he needs to work on his decisiveness, I'll be here to help ease his transition.
I hereby resign from the Staff of Bleach Gotei due to my evaporated passion and dedication (qualifying as an inability to fulfill all of the duties therein to the best I am capable of), thus preventing me from stepping into any matters just because they make me uncomfortable. This resignation brings with it a number of changes for myself and the community.
I should also be required to remain an active and engaged part of the community in order to properly fulfill my role as Site Owner should that ever be needed of me.
I've probably forgotten some things, I'm a touch sleep deprived. Otherwise I feel like I've thought this through. I feel like this is one of the most sensible things I've ever done, no matter how hard it feels to do it. I am a leader of the topmost level and only that so I need to be that--the last line of defense between you rowdy kids and the matches in the basement.
I feel good about this, though, for whatever that's worth. I'd like to feel like it's Tova circa 2012 again, except this time without the total anarchy and war.
Perhaps I'm crazy for thinking it, but that sounds like it might feel pretty good.
I appreciate it.