Post by Garra Desalmados on Jun 2, 2014 0:50:17 GMT -5
And Umi rather liked that...it would be easier to find them when the time came if they were stained.
[The Second Day]
"Seisoku....is that your real name?"
"...No."
"I see...then why do I call you as such?"
"Because when you reach into your soul for a name to call out to in your moment of despair...you ask for mercy."
The question landed in a gulf of blood, feathers, ichor, marrow, and an emotional distance to conflict and be opposite to the physical one. The physical distance between the two was hardly more than a meter or two but they were sharing of the same flesh so could one really say they were apart at all? In being they were the same. Umi had no confusion on this point though he often pretended and omitted information to act as if he did as this was a far easier admission than admitting that the spirit disturbed him. Not in any obvious ways but in its odd autonomy and malice...but now the seed that had grown such a hideous thing was now strew about the land like dandelion petals. One could only hope they were not as prone to propagation....at least not like his thoughts were as they multiplied and seeded a hundred more thoughts regarding what might be best to say or ask next or if it was even appropriate to say or ask anything prior to responding.
His fingers curled.
His...fingers.
His eyes passed from the skeletal thing and examined his form. Human fingers. He looked further along...human arms. Human legs. Human breast. Human feet. He looked down into the memories pooled into a moat around him and saw both his future, past, and present reflect in it. The past of two men who had collided. The present of the one man who had emerged. The future of the two men who would collide then. A raspy breath came to his throat, a tongue of black fire leaving his pursed lips. "...I only wanted them to forgive me."
"You're lying."
Umi's eyes rolled fiercely in the sockets he was adjusting to like an insect pre-molt with the fresh glaze of form and punishment passing through his irises. "It is a skill I am proficient in it seems."
"All writers are..."
He allowed the words to pass through his ears and mar his face as the claws of sound and intent carved vicious lines where pale flesh had once been. "I am no longer a man of art on paper but if you say I must be a writer then you are more honest than I. Yes...I did write. I do write. I will write. On a new canvas...a bright canvas formed of stars affixed onto the bones of broken gods and bleeding sinners from which the critical ink will drain and spoil the skin so that I might be forced to do without proper materials. Blood and a ruined canvas...far more fitting for a thing like me."
"You even speak like him in your clearest moments Ken."
The talons dug further, skin breaking. Cracking. Shattering. Falling apart like the pallid cage that a coffin holds within. Ashen globs of rejected form broke apart the face staring down into the abyss.
"Then I will be buried in a deluge until the time has come for me to succeed where he will fail. Those creatures...those 'gods'....those 'angels'...they are coming for him. I have seen it. He has seen it but perhaps he deludes himself as much as he deludes others...he didn't fail to kill me out of anything but cowardice. I suspect he knew his goals were not achievable by a creature as flawed and childish as himself, attached to phantoms of the people he once knew and owned. He has granted me clarity. Artists use lies to show the truth..."
"Then the thing you know not as Tova is an artist greater than most."
A smile without white. "Yes. I should say he is...so when you fail. When you are thrown screaming and howling back into the world you thought you could replicate I would like you to hear me. From one memory of a man to another? Garra Desalmados forgives you. For your slights, for your harm, for your ruination of everything he held dear...because I have no use for his guilt nor his passions. You are nothing. You were too attached to a pathetic and miserly goal. You deserved your fate and while I did forgive you not-Tova? I won't help you. I want to see it when you go. I want to see what it takes for them to take notice...so wherever you are now? I do not forgive you. I do not forgive anyone. You will never be forgiven."
A pain?...no, not pain. Would one call the sensation of relief a pain? It excites the nerves and shows discomfort...but it is only adjacent to a pain.
An adjacent to pain coursed through his body as great and terrible things spread out from his mortal form. This was not him. He watched the parts of husk fall into the reflecting muck and looked again.
A Sovereign's vicious angled claws.
A Sovereign's thin and sinuous arms.
A Sovereign's blinking, breathing, breast.
A Sovereign's twisting and snapping tendrils.
A Sovereign's heat-less, but never cold, hundred eyes.
A Sovereign's thick and bestial trunk of a tail.
A Sovereign's terrible and weird, not in the modern and diluted sense but in that terrible way that greater men like Poe intended it, things...
Things akin to wings.
Things akin to arms.
Things akin to something so alien as to make the birds of every sky roost and never take flight again for fear of the comparison.
It admired itself for a moment. It took in its form....this took ages. Hours. A full cycle of rising sun and setting moon as he adjusted and the spirit adjacent to him as pain was adjacent to his fading sensation remained silent. In the first few hours he merely looked and examined. In the later stretches of time he experimented with moving the thing. Impossibly quick motions of the eyes and sluggish movements of the tail he had grown to miss in his time as a mere soul accompanied powerful turns and snaps of his wings. Wings...the ugly things...yet essential. They had wings. Or rather, some of them did. The mockery and contempt for them was etched so deeply into this form that he was beyond certain that Royal eyes did not watch him now.
They would be ill for every second they did and would've relented hours ago.
He was uncertain of their number and their size until he had stretched them to touch the bottoms of the caverns of this place and the tips of its boundless roof. He realized the question was irrelevant.
Hatred took whatever form was needed and though it fit a mold the intricacies and specialties of its forms were the most terrible portions of the act...as they were the most terrible portions of himself.
In a day's time he adapted enough to know that such a thing would be impermissible in the world he knew and must return to for although it was a great affront to those terrible and foreign things above him? It would be far more terrible to the things that were adjacent to him. Both here and there as he noticed the gaze of his spirit growing sterner with every hour as if he was forcing himself to view it and hold back bile. Umi had almost forgotten that he had been so quick to betray and tell him to take the 'greater' path.
He would punish him for this.
They shared a moment of connection of the soul through those windows which are often relegated to the status of mere optical spheres. Neither had to speak; both knew the price.
One simply knew the specifics...or did he? Was that in the future or the now? Maybe both. Maybe either. His head was filled with thoughts and things that were as alien as his form...
He would need time to piece these together.
The new word stuck out to him: Sovereign.
As they were 'Royals', or as his mind saw fit to slowly corrode away into its true form of 'Believers' in a false and terrible doctrine, he was adjacent to them...
If one could say the two poles of the planet are 'adjacent'.
They gave themselves such a pompous title...why should they also label him? The word had come to his mind as they had been with him and left him, they left barbed words and called him a 'Broken Royal' a 'Failed Project' and he would have none of that. He was not broken. He was not a failure. He was a success all of his own and only a broken, disfigured, mess of a thing to those things which were more misshapen than he could ever bear to describe...so they would not name him. Here? In this world? In this plane? In this one little sliver of being and existing?
He was king.
The emperor.
The lord.
The keeper.
The Sovereign.
A solitary thing amid an ocean of competitors who could see only the terrible aspects of what he dared to let past his walls. In his domain his words and thoughts were enacted into law as suddenly as they appeared and all who fell or traveled here were his to command and control. The nobility were plural and such they saw it appropriate to name themselves 'Royals' but he was singular. The only one that he had known and the only one he was ever likely to know...
A single solitary Sovereign of Hatred.