Post by Mako Fujita on Jun 5, 2017 15:35:32 GMT -5
It had been two days since he had come to this place; the Kohara residence was not exactly what he was used to. In fact, it was the total opposite, the grounds were massive, it had spare living quarters in the form of small houses on the property- one of which he was currently staying in (which he was also still struggling to get used too) as well as a training building, the main manor, the large stone wall with seals along its outside- it was completely different from what he was used too. Not to mention the sheer weight of the energy around him, it was nearly crushing in many ways- not so much the actual energy, simply the volume of it, he wasn't used to being surrounded by it in so many ways. He was struggling to accurately filter out the energy- he felt like there was always someone near, ready to strike out at him, injure him- crush him into dust. It was beyond harrowing- the sensation kept him up late, to the point he was being driven to slumber the past few nights only through a mixture of exhaustion, and his fear taking over him tot eh point he subconsciously was shrinking his own presence- instinctually "hiding" even when he slept- something he had never had to do in the past.
Like a ghost, his presence disappeared in the night- and reappeared the next morning as he awoke, subconsciously only able to slumber knowing nothing surrounding him, was able to sense him. As harrowing, and different as it all was, however- Mako still was finding that he was slowly adjusting to everything. The first few days he had struggled with even walking around the complex, practically clinging to Zabel in fear like a terrified animal- now he was able to at the very least, walk around the complex without cowering in the shadows at the slightest shift, movement, or feeling of someone approaching him. In many ways, Zabel had become a rock for him to at least know was always there on an instinctual level- it was odd to him, really. He had never had a mother figure, nor had he had an affectionate adult, even in the strict way she acted. It was .. an odd situation for the boy, who was torn between terror at his new surroundings, mistrust for Zabel due to not believing in her "kindness" and a small part of him wanting to accept her. He wasn't sure if that part of him was actually his real feelings and thoughts just yet, but he was aware that it at least existed- at the moment he was fairly certain that it was just whimsical thinking, however.
These thoughts were what currently swirled through the boys mind as he pushed his arm through the sleeve of his top- they had tried to get him to wear a Kimono but it had felt wrong in too many ways- he could barely adjust to wearing something that wasn't rags, let alone something that dainty and fancy. It had felt unnatural, uncomfortable- and he'd quickly requested something plainer and simpler. Glancing down at himself, his face remained blank, calm- but his eyes still held that small light. He had made this decision to get stronger, but he had been physically incapable of focusing on any training out of fear .. but today, today he wanted to try. He was still terrified- fear clung to his heart like some sort of sickness, and he jumped at shadows that flickered in the corners of his vision. But he no longer had an attack from the fear; he was able to manage it well enough now. Truly adjusting to an entirely new environment could take months, he couldn't wait that long to start training- he wasn't even sure that Zabel would let him wait that long anyway.
He was lucky she had allowed him to wait as long as she had.
Shoving his legs through the simple black pants, he pulled the white top closed, tying the grey sash around his waist, it was effectively a martial arts gi- one he was at least relatively comfortable in by comparison tot he rags that had been burned. Not even worth trying to wash, and he certainly had no attachment to them. It felt odd- to be clean, the first night had been the worst- he'd been so itchy that combined with the fear he couldn't sleep. All of the grime caked blood, dirt, skin oils, and the soul king knew what else had been practically glued to his skin. He'd scrubbed, scoured, and rinsed over and over until his skin was more red than pale- and bleeding in several locations due to the grime having caused severe rashes to form on his skin. Thankfully, his new "Sensei's" healing- and more gentle bathing since then along with sleep had allowed him to heal greatly. The permanent damage to his body from the constant abuse was still there, but he knew there was no way around that.
Now, he stood- hair cut short along the back and sides- top slightly longer and brushed backward neatly. Though he didn't think it looked good, he didn't look good in general- though .. he did look better. The matting and grease in his hair were gone, it was clean, and groomed- something he couldn't ever remember happening. Similarly, his skin looked like it had more color, and his eyes .. didn't look as dead, even he had to admit, though he'd never say such a thing aloud. His nails had been cut short due to hangnails and ingrown nails- but the pain in his fingertips was finally fading. Having been able to eat, without fear of abuse as well, had done wonders for him- he felt .. alive, for the first time in as long as he could remember. He almost felt like a person- and the idea of losing that feeling again to his father made his chest tighten, and his eyes to harden just slightly even as his face remained blank and cold.
Today was the day- and with that thought, he pushed the door open quietly and took a step out, his instincts automatically kicking in as he twitched physically- the sensation of so many presences near him putting pressure on his chest, but he took slow breaths- and calmed. Searching for the sensation he had come to know- Zabel's specific presence so that he could go to her, and finally ask her to actually teach him. Though .. he may be too weak physically still, but even seeing the most basic of actions would help him tremendously he was certain. He took a step and winced, his leg still moved oddly .. he supposed that limp would cling to him for life. The repeated breaks at his hip and femur must be too severe. So were the breaks in his toes, and hands he was sure .. too bad miracle medicine didn't exist, he doubted even that magic she had used to heal him could fix permanent damage to his body.
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