Post by Takasugi Ayumi on Mar 1, 2013 5:52:53 GMT -5
The Maggot's Nest was always quiet at night.
Not that from within the confines of the cavernous facility it was possible to discern time, but Ayumi mapped out tentative patterns for the flow of time, deciding that when she found herself tired, it was probably night (though she could be mistaken, naturally, for she found herself tired an awful lot). That and if she craned her head back far enough, she could make out the colour of the sliver of the sky that was visible through the miniscule, barred window located close to where the ceiling and walls met and a careful tilt of her head upwards revealed that the sky was inky and dark. As of right now, exhaustion was slowly creeping upon her, weighing down on her eyelids. A small yawn escaped her lips and she clumsily moved one hand to cover her open mouth, her ears vaguely picking up the sound of scurrying somewhere near her seated position on the dirty floor. Leaning further back against the wall and slouching even further forward, Ayumi ignored it, realising after a moment's thought that it was probably the movement of rats up and down the walls; to her horror the sound was familiar, something she had known unconsciously and did not even have to verify. In a sense it reflected on how long she had spent incarcerated in this detention centre; were she still living normally then the idea of sharing living quarters with rats would have horrified her beyond explanation or expression. She cast a wry glance to the side when the sound grew louder and more noticeable--perhaps the rodents were growing restless--as if to ask them, in a less than polite manner which she condensed into that one glare, to tone their racket down. Naturally nothing happened.
"It doesn't work," the woman sprawled out opposite to her groaned. "They're always there, always just there ... " The brunette surveyed the larger woman carefully, some apprehension evident in her brown orbs. She responded with silence, deciding that conversing with her would probably lead to complication and might even be impossible after the other screeched again, this time profanities that Ayumi tuned out with practiced ease; the woman did not seem to be in nearly enough pain to warrant concern from a fellow inmate and what with the dog-eat-dog hierarchy that existed in the prison, one could only worry about themselves. In a place like this companions were challenging to find and often considered unnecessary. It was natural to ignore other inmates writhing or crying out in pain, to watch them crumble as they tried in vain to live with the horror they had seen or with the weight of their actions. Ayumi herself fell victim to these episodes of self-destruction and had grown over the years, accustomed to the sheer loneliness. Her only method of coping was to keep talking to herself--to keep reminding herself that there existed a world outside of this giant prison, to know time still passed and the world still revolved. Her own memories of this world were fading into dust in her mind, as if they were being smudged away under the hands of an eager artist rectifying a charcoal image, but they had yet to be stowed away in some dark corner or her mind or be completely forgotten. Though not particularly concerned with attaining freedom or normalcy currently (she would not mind either), she was intent on staying sane for as long as she could. A girl like her thrived on mastery, on control, on having the upper hand; without it she would question her worth and her competence.
And even then the Nest would morph into that interrogation room in the sixth division and the inmates' voices would seem menacing, booming and hollow, just like the ones she had been treated with when detained by the sixth division. Sometimes brilliant red rings would overlap her vision and she would not remember her surroundings; she would live one hundred years ago, somewhere in one of the richer districts of Rukongai, still cleaning up after her parents had closed the bar for the night. She had slowly realised that forever remaining in the past and acknowledging that a future did not exist for her--not in the same way it existed for other, normal, sane people--was her only choice. "It's not like I can do anything in the future for that matter; my future is this cell and it's walls and it will only ever be that. I'll never taste nice food again, or wear better clothes or even sleep in a more comfortable place. Should I bother looking forward? Would the optimist tell me to be happy I'm still alive? To hell with optimism," She was broken out of her musings by the sound of footsteps thundering through the corridors of the nest, coupled with reiatsu that she didn't recognise. The very feel of it indicated a vast amount of power; if she were to be honest, it was intimidating.
"A visitor?" She ventured quietly at the footsteps (whose sound was increasing in volume) as she stood up shakily and warily glanced into the long corridor.
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