Post by Kokuou Munashii on Jan 4, 2017 17:00:02 GMT -5
Well... kinda got it working now. let's see. the system startup repair didnt exactly work like it should have, but it told me that basically some drivers somewhere were doing something and it might possibly be the problem [i'm paraphrasing], i disabled the drivers and retried but somehow i lost information and stuff regardless of it apparently being a video problem. in fact it feels a hell of a lot like it restored to the point where my computer was last fucked up, 99.9% certain, which doesnt please me but doesnt seem like i can do anything about. still i should probably just see about replacing the harddrive regardless because this is the second time some shit has happened, i just now have a bit more time to prepare for that drain in the paycheck
Post by Houmaru Ametsuchi on Jan 7, 2017 18:25:29 GMT -5
so i am filled up with this particular hard drives issues, going to buy a new Hard drive and an OS that i will be able to stick on a shelf and do a fresh reinstall again later if needed. but why the hell cant i find a copy of windows 7 home premium [with licence] that doesnt look like a fucking bootleg? the somewhat more ligitimate looking ones are up to $100+, and the shady ones are like $30... at least figuring out a hard drive is easy WD Black 2TB [or better] and i can pick one up from bestbuy for like $75... but i am this close to just spending the hundred and buying a copy from wallmart so i know i am not being screwed over... <.<
Post by Houmaru Ametsuchi on Jan 9, 2017 19:16:24 GMT -5
Problem #1] staying on hold waiting for the Grievance office to pick up do to an issue i have tried filing last week, til the phone's battery died, i call back and the office is closed.
problem #2] the water in my kitchen froze.
problem #3] after running around the house turning on water so that the pipes dont burst due to water pressure minutes later a steady drip of water appears from my ceiling, directly above the kitchen's drain board forcing me to try and figure out what to do there, eventually shut off the water to the bathroom sink [which is located directly above the kitchen and would make the most sense], and that has apparently solved that issue. but investigating it, other then a tiny amount of condensation on the drain of the bathroom sink, no signs of enough water to cause a steady drip were found, nothing else wet not even the baseboard under the drain in the cabinet for the faucet. so this means that its probably located between the floor and ceiling of the two.
all i wanted to do was write today was that too much to ask? now i need to try and finish what i was doing in few hours and go to work and hope nothing else breaks before i get back.
Goes on Christmas vacation after being suspended from work via bullshit between coworkers. Leaves with 1,600 bucks. Comes back with around 800. Sad. Comes back, roommate and I have a falling out. Roommate turns, over the course of a week, into a backstabbing, two-faced passive aggressively insulting prick with an 'can't be wrong' complex. Finds out best friend and coworker/manager tried to get me fired twice over my vacation by 1) ratting me out to our GM about my personal beef with another coworker, and 2) scheduling me when I was on vacation so I'd be written up for a 'no call, no show'. Said best friend continues to be two faced and not own up to her mistakes in the slightest. Getting essentially kicked out by the end of the month by my roommate. Legit being kicked out with probably 500-1,000 bucks total to rent a place, pay my first round of bills, and take care of myself for a while. It's doable, but shouldn't hafta be done to begin with, because my roommate's a twat. Find out the woman I've been in love with steadily for the past 4-5 years has effectively stopped loving me. Granted, we're not together and haven't been for a year and a half, but it still stings, yknow?
Ayyyyy life is going good amirite.
Follow your dreams, unless they end at a wall or mass murder scene.
Goes on Christmas vacation after being suspended from work via bullshit between coworkers. Leaves with 1,600 bucks. Comes back with around 800. Sad. Comes back, roommate and I have a falling out. Roommate turns, over the course of a week, into a backstabbing, two-faced passive aggressively insulting prick with an 'can't be wrong' complex. Finds out best friend and coworker/manager tried to get me fired twice over my vacation by 1) ratting me out to our GM about my personal beef with another coworker, and 2) scheduling me when I was on vacation so I'd be written up for a 'no call, no show'. Said best friend continues to be two faced and not own up to her mistakes in the slightest. Getting essentially kicked out by the end of the month by my roommate. Legit being kicked out with probably 500-1,000 bucks total to rent a place, pay my first round of bills, and take care of myself for a while. It's doable, but shouldn't hafta be done to begin with, because my roommate's a twat. Find out the woman I've been in love with steadily for the past 4-5 years has effectively stopped loving me. Granted, we're not together and haven't been for a year and a half, but it still stings, yknow?
Ayyyyy life is going good amirite.
Purge the makers of trouble from your life. Treat yourself with a new beginning, make new connections elsewhere.
pretty words aside. I cant phantom how work can get so stupid, I would have ended the shit long ago. A saying i say about myself. I dont start drama. I END drama
Hopefully things at job get better and you get a new better place to live at! and maybe get a less asshole filled job location aswell!
My troubles stem from not having any jobs in my field within my area... needing a job to get a car but cant get a car cause i need a job bullshit.
Lastly, I understand the pain of love and separation and stress in other areas can make you turn back to past feelings and it fucking stings!
Go to sleep, and see what tomorrow will bring, day by day!
Goes on Christmas vacation after being suspended from work via bullshit between coworkers. Leaves with 1,600 bucks. Comes back with around 800. Sad. Comes back, roommate and I have a falling out. Roommate turns, over the course of a week, into a backstabbing, two-faced passive aggressively insulting prick with an 'can't be wrong' complex. Finds out best friend and coworker/manager tried to get me fired twice over my vacation by 1) ratting me out to our GM about my personal beef with another coworker, and 2) scheduling me when I was on vacation so I'd be written up for a 'no call, no show'. Said best friend continues to be two faced and not own up to her mistakes in the slightest. Getting essentially kicked out by the end of the month by my roommate. Legit being kicked out with probably 500-1,000 bucks total to rent a place, pay my first round of bills, and take care of myself for a while. It's doable, but shouldn't hafta be done to begin with, because my roommate's a twat. Find out the woman I've been in love with steadily for the past 4-5 years has effectively stopped loving me. Granted, we're not together and haven't been for a year and a half, but it still stings, yknow?
Ayyyyy life is going good amirite.
Stab your fake best friend and move on with everything in your life. Quite literally if need be, burn everything down and move to the next wherever that doesn't have an overpopulation of hookers and drug addicts, and start anew. New friends (or lack thereof tbh at this rate), new job if you can't get that bitch-cunt fired for trying to get you fired, which is possible btw as I've done that before to a couple of people now, and find a place that is all your own.
Gloam's 2017 might be a rough start, but it's not even half a month in, and you can either fight this hill and claim that top, or let yourself roll down to the mudpits.
Goes on Christmas vacation after being suspended from work via bullshit between coworkers. Leaves with 1,600 bucks. Comes back with around 800. Sad. Comes back, roommate and I have a falling out. Roommate turns, over the course of a week, into a backstabbing, two-faced passive aggressively insulting prick with an 'can't be wrong' complex. Finds out best friend and coworker/manager tried to get me fired twice over my vacation by 1) ratting me out to our GM about my personal beef with another coworker, and 2) scheduling me when I was on vacation so I'd be written up for a 'no call, no show'. Said best friend continues to be two faced and not own up to her mistakes in the slightest. Getting essentially kicked out by the end of the month by my roommate. Legit being kicked out with probably 500-1,000 bucks total to rent a place, pay my first round of bills, and take care of myself for a while. It's doable, but shouldn't hafta be done to begin with, because my roommate's a twat. Find out the woman I've been in love with steadily for the past 4-5 years has effectively stopped loving me. Granted, we're not together and haven't been for a year and a half, but it still stings, yknow?
Ayyyyy life is going good amirite.
Stab your fake best friend and move on with everything in your life. Quite literally if need be, burn everything down and move to the next wherever that doesn't have an overpopulation of hookers and drug addicts, and start anew. New friends (or lack thereof tbh at this rate), new job if you can't get that bitch-cunt fired for trying to get you fired, which is possible btw as I've done that before to a couple of people now, and find a place that is all your own.
Gloam's 2017 might be a rough start, but it's not even half a month in, and you can either fight this hill and claim that top, or let yourself roll down to the mudpits.
I'm hoping and pulling for the former.
I'd love to give them a second chance, but I know it wouldn't stop even if I did. She's a really good friend of mine, but since she got her position at work (she's not like the 3rd in charge in terms of our heirarchy), she's become a completely different person and pretty much cut her ties to friends. I'd try to get her fired, but I'd rather just let her find herself isolated with no one to help or back her up when she needs it.
I'm on my way to moving on with everything, it's just a rough bit right now. I've been talking to some of my actual friends and they're all willing to help me out because they understand what I'm going through. Even if I'm not on here for a while because of my moving-out and moving-in, I'll still try to come back and stuff because ya'll are amazing peoples. Rough 2017 start, but like my friend said, it can't get too much worse at the start of the year and I've still got 11 months left. It's gonna be either dead or homeless or broke, or I'll get better over the year. I'm hoping for the former as well.
Follow your dreams, unless they end at a wall or mass murder scene.
Fuck life. Fuck the financial aid office for only paying out half what i accepted. Fuck me for not being geeedy enough to just take all of what was offered and thus deepen my future loan debt. Fuck whatever chemical imbalance/depression/autism/whatever the fuck it is that sends me into a mood where i just wanna curl up into a ball and do absolutely nothing until i fade out of existence. Fuck everything.
Post by Calendrea Hughes on Jan 24, 2017 9:06:33 GMT -5
Let's see if I can manage the TL:DR; version of this up front.
Seven siblings, elderly parents, failing health....check They all move away, New Zealand, Ireland, Germany, Ohio, Michigan, and one on the other side of West Virginia and so and and so forth, leaving me to tend the elderly parents...check 12 years of that and dad dies.
Brother comes home from Germany and takes over. Suddenly everything is a big deal. blah blah. Oh the sacrifices...we won't talk about losing numerous jobs due to time abuse from running parents to ER, leaving work for incidents to tend to them, and so on and so forth. The night the cops were called cause dad was wandering town in his underwear was only superseded by the day the cops were called cause he walked into some woman's house in his skivvies and fell asleep on her couch. Ah the wonderful world of dementia. I could go on forever...TLDR....focus!!
The brother in NZ comes home and mom makes him power of attorney over medical and the one back from Germany power of attorney over finance. Neither of whom live local. One goes to Wisconsin and the other moves to Peru.
Yes, she is an amazing woman. SO into the nursing home she goes. God forbid they float me $400/ month so I can quit working and move her in with me to care for full time. The brother in Peru laughs in my face and threatens to get a restraining order to keep me from seeing her because obviously all I care about is her money...uhm what money? every home my parents ever had got taken by the bank! The sister on the other side of the state tells me that mom is not worth sacrificing my life over. The sister in Ireland moves to the UK and writes after a many year's silence to tell me she isn't going to be part of the family ever again and not to let her even know when mom dies. Oh and never mind that this is the sort of stuff I do for a living...it was worth spending 10 times that a month just to shove shit in my face, I guess.
Mom starts chocking, they call in hospice, the doctor says not to feed her anything but water and juice with thicket in it. And here is where it gets fun...
The decision to starve mom to death has been made. Due to choking. My brother will not have a feeding tube put in. But they are still putting things into her mouth. My question was why not make those things have some nutritional value? OMG I am SUCH A FUCKING BITCH??
Obviously this meant that the brother back from NZ who moved to Wisconsin, I know right? Friggen Wisconsin?...means that I was calling him an incompetent monster who doesn't give a shit about mom. And forwards my family emails to the doctor, the nursing home director, and the hospice nurse. [ just picture me foaming at the mouth now and shaking my head and wondering what the fuck THAT was for ]
Anyway, THAT is what I got for Christmas this year. An email titled 'mom's funeral'...thinking omg...my mom died. only it was all about this shit and what to do with her. And he can suck my left ball sack, she is getting a catholic funeral and he can stand out in the fucking parking lot for all i care. once she is dead his god almighty power of attorney paper don't mean shit! And this email? Another brother forwarded it to me. According to...Mr. Power of Attorney, I was not supposed to even see it cause it was only sent to those who cared about mom and were paying for her to be in the nursing home... [ yeah...2016 sucked ass hard...oh but it gets better all the time indeed it does ]
Is she dead yet? Hell no she is not dead yet. Here it is over a month later and she is just as healthy as ever. How long does it take to starve a senior citizen to death anyway? Apparently forever. I go and see her and she is alert and actively giving me shit with her dark looks, grabbing my hand to help feed herself when I give her the shit they will LET her eat/drink...while they make her go to the dinning room and watch everyone else eat real food that she can point to and fuss about...she smiles and laughs and nib noses into everyone;s business as that are walking up and down the hallway or sitting in the day room...yes...Alzheimer's is a wonderful world too!
Well the brother in Peru emails me today. Seems like Mr. Wonderful there...^^^^^^^^^ has decided he is not going to continue to help pay for mom to be in the nursing home. I DONE HANDLED ALL MY LAWSUITS, SO FUCK YOU DEBBIE!!!!!
yeah, that will sure show me for asking a question...
Some of you have likely noticed I've been in a shitty mood lately. There are several reasons I'll list here momentarily but none of them are you.
Works got me pissed off and run ragged. I've been the only designer we've had for a year now and the workloads only getting bigger and bigger. I've had no luck finding a partner to help share the load and alleviate my stress levels. On top of that I'm having problems with a coworker over stupid shit they've said and have had to get upper management and HR involved which has only escalated the bullshit to levels I rarely put up with outside the workplace.
The wife and I have had several "tiffs" or whatever you call them over the past few days and I'm pissed at myself for causing them or allowing the disagreements/triggers to bring it to the point where we argue. And while I may consider arguing a sport and a fun hobby I don't like arguing with her because inevitably she'll cry and I feel like a jackass even if I didn't cause it and I spend days making myself feel like a jerk.
We've been living with her parents since last january and I'm about at my limit for patience with them and her grandmother who also lives with us. They're a very interdependent family and her mom and grandmother love to dote on people. I'm very much the opposite and am incredibly independent. So playing nice and forcing myself to let them dote on me, something I despise unless I'm really really sick, is starting to take its toll. Other stresses related to committed relationships are piling up too.
In short, I'm running out of patience with everything in my life and I don't see a break coming up for me anywhere in the near future.
So I'm sorry BG. I shouldn't be in a foul mood all the time and I most definitely shouldn't be taking it out on you.
Post by Fáelán O'Mongan on May 11, 2017 6:19:27 GMT -5
God fucking damn it shut your fucking face you narcissistic slackjawed scruffy gobshite. If have to spend any more time with you I'm going to punch you so fucking hard you'll become a fucking vaisard. AHHHHHHHHHHH
Post by Amelia Vietti-Thompson on Jun 1, 2017 13:55:56 GMT -5
Yay results day! So I was supposed to have had a CMR but had a CT coronary angiogram instead by chance and now I find there's just another thing added to the list to kill me before even reaching my middle age.